today i had a wonderful conversation with wonderful people. a conversation that i don't even know how it started but it led to me being able to share what i believe and the thing most precious to me. it was wonderful not because i was talking with other 'christians' but because i was not. i was talking with people who i have much love and respect for who shared their opinions and voiced their thoughts on 'spirituality' and 'god' and 'heaven' etc etc. mostly it was so wonderful because i realised how passionate i am and it was a reminder to me of what is so dear to my heart and what matters most in my life.
I love people. And i am learning to love them better.
and something else i love is being able to say "i don't know". And then learning and finding out what the answer may be......i know so little and it is ok that i don't know all the answers.
but i really am glad for the few opportunities i have had to share when they come......no matter what the outcome is or what the other person believes. whatever is done in love and from compassion can't be done wrong........
i don't think.
my heart is content tonight.
Thank you Lord.
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Sunday, December 12, 2010
sensitive
i randomly came across a youtube video of a young girl getting scoliosis surgery and her journey before, during and after............brought back memories that made me a little emo.
It seems like a life time ago when i went through that myself......yet there are some moments of it that i'll never forget....def wasn't the most pleasant time of my life at all, but has made me appreciate life a lot more....
like a number of traumatic events in my life.....they have made me see certain things from a much clearer and brighter perspective and allowed me to meet amazing people along the way.....
for that i am grateful.
It seems like a life time ago when i went through that myself......yet there are some moments of it that i'll never forget....def wasn't the most pleasant time of my life at all, but has made me appreciate life a lot more....
like a number of traumatic events in my life.....they have made me see certain things from a much clearer and brighter perspective and allowed me to meet amazing people along the way.....
for that i am grateful.
Thursday, December 9, 2010
Something to think about this Christmas.....
I know that i'll be spending much less at Christmas this year.....since all my family and majority of friends are back home in NZ (a relief because i wouldn't be able to afford to this year anyway and it is much less stressful!).....so I'm trying to think in what other ways i can give.......
time, space, presence, love, support, relationships, my ears, my heart, my eyes, my arms to embrace....
inspired. check out the vid clip below:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eVqqj1v-ZBU&feature=related
time, space, presence, love, support, relationships, my ears, my heart, my eyes, my arms to embrace....
inspired. check out the vid clip below:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eVqqj1v-ZBU&feature=related
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
25 Random Things that may or may not interest you about me (following in other bloggers footsteps)
1) i start listening to Christmas music in October and don't stop until January........sometimes i listen to it no matter what month it is, i love the season that much.
2) i prefer words over gifts any day.
3) i'm ridiculously double-jointed and more people seem to notice than i'd like.
4) watermelon has been my fav food since i was a kid.
5) my spine has 3 titanium rods screwed and hooked into it due to having scoliosis surgery when i was 15.....i am still crooked and it still bugs me daily.
6) i used to have bad dreams after watching Macgyver as a kid.
7) i absolutely love netball and miss it like crazy when i'm not playing it.
8) i feel like barfing whenever people who are brushing their teeth try to have a conversation with me while they have toothpaste in their mouth.
9) i have a very real fear of bees, wasps, hornets.
10) ever since i became a Christian i have felt called to work with late teen/early 20's young women.
11) i used to HATE that people would call me Phoebe (from "Friends").....but i think i have finally learnt to embrace it and face the fact it's not going to stop.
12) i want to travel all around the world and experience every culture possible.
13) writing is one of my biggest forms of therapy and one of my biggest loves.
14) balls always manage to hit my head no matter where i am or where they are.
15) i get teary whenever i see someone who looks even remotely lonely.
16) many of my closest friends have been my friends for over 14years.
17) i got fired from working at Foodtown (supermarket) when i was in high school.
18) i played the flute when i was about 12 for an orchestra that was supposed to do this big performance thing but i got kicked out of it for never concentrating or "being focused"
19) i have been to 6 different countries (australia, rarotonga, philippines, thailand, USA, canada)
20) i was the body-double for Aphrodite on Xena Warrior Princess and also for a main actress in an american TV film and did lots of extra's work on many different programmes.
21) i danced for 18yrs.
22) i used to play the keyboard and i really wish i'd kept it up......i also used to play the recorder hardout but don't wish so much that i kept that up.
23) we used to have a German Shepherd dog called Max.
24) my brother and i went to a country school for a year or so when i was in primary (which i was not the most favourite kid at) and we got given ducklings to look after which we called Daffy and Dynamo.
25) since my car accident i have definitely become a backseat passenger.
2) i prefer words over gifts any day.
3) i'm ridiculously double-jointed and more people seem to notice than i'd like.
4) watermelon has been my fav food since i was a kid.
5) my spine has 3 titanium rods screwed and hooked into it due to having scoliosis surgery when i was 15.....i am still crooked and it still bugs me daily.
6) i used to have bad dreams after watching Macgyver as a kid.
7) i absolutely love netball and miss it like crazy when i'm not playing it.
8) i feel like barfing whenever people who are brushing their teeth try to have a conversation with me while they have toothpaste in their mouth.
9) i have a very real fear of bees, wasps, hornets.
10) ever since i became a Christian i have felt called to work with late teen/early 20's young women.
11) i used to HATE that people would call me Phoebe (from "Friends").....but i think i have finally learnt to embrace it and face the fact it's not going to stop.
12) i want to travel all around the world and experience every culture possible.
13) writing is one of my biggest forms of therapy and one of my biggest loves.
14) balls always manage to hit my head no matter where i am or where they are.
15) i get teary whenever i see someone who looks even remotely lonely.
16) many of my closest friends have been my friends for over 14years.
17) i got fired from working at Foodtown (supermarket) when i was in high school.
18) i played the flute when i was about 12 for an orchestra that was supposed to do this big performance thing but i got kicked out of it for never concentrating or "being focused"
19) i have been to 6 different countries (australia, rarotonga, philippines, thailand, USA, canada)
20) i was the body-double for Aphrodite on Xena Warrior Princess and also for a main actress in an american TV film and did lots of extra's work on many different programmes.
21) i danced for 18yrs.
22) i used to play the keyboard and i really wish i'd kept it up......i also used to play the recorder hardout but don't wish so much that i kept that up.
23) we used to have a German Shepherd dog called Max.
24) my brother and i went to a country school for a year or so when i was in primary (which i was not the most favourite kid at) and we got given ducklings to look after which we called Daffy and Dynamo.
25) since my car accident i have definitely become a backseat passenger.
Monday, October 11, 2010
some of my thanksgiving shots...
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| nora and i |
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| mattie and i - sorting the massive turkey |
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| my kids plus extras |
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| pumpkin pie is delish |
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| road hockey.....a tradition at celebrations |
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| hardout feast |
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| love her |
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| love this music room....such joy |
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| the people that have all been so kind to me! |
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| thanksgiving drawing competition....*kiwi* |
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| recuperating after so much food |
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| mad musicians doing a recording for g'ma. |
Sunday, October 10, 2010
much to be Thankful for
''Best of all is it to preserve everything in a pure, still heart, and let there be for every pulse a thanksgiving, and for every breath a song."I stole that quote off my lovely friend Whitney's facebook page. I love it.
- Konrad von Gesner
Tomorrow is Canada Thanksgiving Day. I LOOOOVVEEE this celebration. I have a dinner tonight with a heap of different people with the family i live with. And tomorrow i have another dinner/party night with Whitney and all her beautiful family and friends.
I have SO much to be thankful for. I wish NZ celebrated this day too......
I'm thankful to be here, knowing it's where I'm meant to be and it was so the right thing for me to do. I'm thankful to have made it through the last two years and endured it all...knowing i'm changing for the better and those events have only (hopefully) made me stronger.
I'm thankful for the huge amount of good, inspirational, genuine people i have in my life - all over the world. I seriously do not know how i managed to get such amazing people in my life......and they just keep coming...more and more of them.
This is weird to say in such a way, i know, but I'm thankful for my hands that i express so much with, for my feet and legs that take me the places i need to go, for my eyes that give me sight and let me see God's creation, for my ears that get to hear songs and sounds of laughter so often, for my nose that takes in many different scents.
I'm thankful for a fully functional, working body! After all the injuries and operations and things that i've faced....i'm thankful it all still works and is healthy! Maybe one day i'll even be really thankful for my crookedness and let that be a reminder to me of the imperfect perfection all around me.
But mostly, I am thankful that i know Jesus.....and to Him i owe my everything for all He blesses me with and puts up with from me.
yikes this blog is a bit deep. for those of you that know me....you know that writing is my biggest therapy ....so you won't judge me too much. haha.
Blessed abundantly.x
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
kinda powerful i think
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EO19hTkgkzU&feature=player_embedded#!
pretty genius video i think. kinda sums things up pretty well.
pretty genius video i think. kinda sums things up pretty well.
blog name
for those of you who have been asking....
καθαρός is the meaning of my name in Greek. The meaning of my name being 'pure'......something that i fail miserably at representing......but a word that means so much to me.
I think that there is something really significant and special to the meaning behind a person's name and i love that mine means something so beautiful......even if i do not represent that beauty even the slightest.
καθαρός is kinda a thing between me and God and the journey i have travelled with Him to get to this place of embracing such a word. And that is why it is so dear to me.
I have been thinking about getting it inked on me...but i'm a little nervous to take that step yet.
x
καθαρός is the meaning of my name in Greek. The meaning of my name being 'pure'......something that i fail miserably at representing......but a word that means so much to me.
I think that there is something really significant and special to the meaning behind a person's name and i love that mine means something so beautiful......even if i do not represent that beauty even the slightest.
καθαρός is kinda a thing between me and God and the journey i have travelled with Him to get to this place of embracing such a word. And that is why it is so dear to me.
I have been thinking about getting it inked on me...but i'm a little nervous to take that step yet.
x
Monday, September 20, 2010
torn
i am torn between two worlds. i have just about reached the half way point in my Canada trip! it's so hard to believe, i never expected to settle in so quickly or easily.
i am so not ready to leave yet but i feel like january is going to be here in a second and then i'm going to have to go. i am unsure of what to do!! canada has my heart now too...........maybe because of the people that i have been so blessed by here, maybe because of the canadian blood in me and my heritage here, maybe because parts of it remind me of home. I don't know. but i know i am torn and have some big decisions to make in the next few months.
i am so not ready to leave yet but i feel like january is going to be here in a second and then i'm going to have to go. i am unsure of what to do!! canada has my heart now too...........maybe because of the people that i have been so blessed by here, maybe because of the canadian blood in me and my heritage here, maybe because parts of it remind me of home. I don't know. but i know i am torn and have some big decisions to make in the next few months.
Sunday, September 19, 2010
First Blog!
Well, i have finally succumbed to the blogging world. A lot of people have been suggesting that i start a blog....to keep people in-the-know with my where abouts and what i'm up to on the other side of the world, and the people that i'm with on the other side of the world all do blogs anyway. So here i am...i'm not so sure i'll know what to write on these things......when i do write it is usually quite personal and "deep"....and not so sure it would be so much fun for all to see......... but we'll see how far i get......
love to all.x
love to all.x
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